It doesn't matter how skinny I am or how much I've lost in the past I've always had a pudge. In my cheerleading uniform there was even a damn pudge and I was in the 120-130 range. It's just a part of my body I've grown up with.
I want a flat stomach... To be able to sit down and not have a belly or pudge to worry about. Bend over without a fat roll blocking me from painting my dern toe nails. When had trouble painting my toe nails that was when I got really upset about how far I'd let myself go... Struggling to paint my own toe nails was impossible bending over like I used to... I had to put my foot to the side. The damn belly was in the way and it grossed me out. More embarrassed than anything.
The pudge has been all sizes! From little pudge to pregnant belly looking. I swear at my largest I looked pregnant and everyone thought I was... Yeah not cool! If you know anything about me being pregnant is the last thing that I want to happen. I'm an egg donor for a reason... I just don't want kids of my own.
I've been asked how far along I am, when am I due and even the dreaded belly rub asking what I'm having! Holy sheeeet people!!! I'm not pregnant! It's a "food baby" or "beer belly" or just a gut! But when someone touches your stomach hoping there is a baby in there, it is very embarrassing once they find out its just all fat.
I will have a flat stomach... Will it be perfect? No, but I'm ok with that... It's progress. From letting myself go so much I had wonderful stretch marks come up too. On my stomach.... What did I do to myself? I let go and stopped caring is what happened. It's sad and annoying.
I'm on the road to no more belly rubs, no asking of I'm pregnant and no more side saddle toe nail painting!!
Goodbye pudge!!
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